Phoenix Ashes

Phoneix Ashes

My first ever post on a blog...god I never thought I'd ever be doing this. Don't get me wrong, I'm not discriminating against those who write blogs. If you feel like you wanna tell a story to the whole world, by all means go ahead. I kinda believe in the fact that everyone should have their own opinion and no one, not even THE MAN, has the right to suppress that basic human right. But I guess I just never got into it, blog writing I mean. It was my perception that a blog was similar to an online diary and personally, I'd rather tell my stories through my closest friends rather than to a bunch of strangers. Also the fact that I've read a couple of blogs that sounded more like whiny, idiotic and shallow reads didn't help either. I mean why the FUCK would I want to be like those people who write about their everyday life and their "oh-so-deep thoughts" (sarcasm if you got it...if you didn't f*#$ off, YOU ARE ONE of these people). Granted there might be other blogs out there (better than mine) with intellectually stimulating viewpoints and insights which I have not read, but since this is my fucked up blog and this is my fucked up opinion I'd like to stick to it as such. Sue me.

After all that, why would I do this then you might ask? I'm not sure really. No definite answer to this one. It could be that I'm bored with my own mundane life...want to add a bit of spice into it (as if!!!), it could be that I'm trying something new...to put myself out there to be heard...(kinda scary if you ask me) or maybe coz another emo-fuck, like myself, might want to read the "rantings and ravings" of another tormented soul.. or in his case "tormented prick". You know who you are. In any case, yeah well .. I've decided to jump on the bandwagon. But I ain't joining the fucking band (says me but more on that on other posts). I walk to my own tune. Mostly alone.

So here it starts. Don't go expecting nice bed time stories, or cheerful renditions of my life (for now)...or happy happy thoughts about how wonderful everything is ... most of the time I'm never on that road...and when I am, you won't be hearing from me. I'm not about to tell you who I am, what I'm about.. you figure that out for yourself and someday if you wanna tell me your thoughts on that, DON'T. I don't give a fuck. Only a select few have that priveledge and if you're not on my list then shut the fuck up. How do you know you are on my list ? You figure that one out for yourself too. One clue: Actions speak louder than words..cliched but very true in my books. So if you're one of those ignorant buffoons who can't read people too bad for you. That's me, maybe.