Lose Yourself

Lose Yourself

I have been in a thinking mode over the past couple of days (so what's new?). I realised some things about myself that I don't think I've ever internalized. These are a list of things I found out,

1. I like having conversations with strangers. I find it intriguing and it changes my perceptions and beliefs in a lot of issues.

2. I am currently at a point in my life where it is unstable, explosive, hardly calm and normal. That is the way I wanted it to be and I have achieved it. Maybe I'm a late bloomer. Where others have gone through this stage in their lives and are ready to move on, I've just started and I think I have the right to live it like this for a while. Hell, some others in other parts of the world are still living in choppy waters even at an older age.

3. I have issues. 3 persons in one weekend have told me that. Issue no. 1 My religion. Issue no. 2 My angsty outlook on life which I believe stems from the fact that I grew up in a disadvantaged background and I have succeded bringing myself from where I was from to where I am now (albeit with the help of others) through living the life that most others never lived. Issue no. 3 While I pine for a time where my life would be stable and easy, I would find it mundane. Living in turbulent conditions make you appreciate the finer points about people and about life.Issue no.4 I love with every bit of my soul and I expect the same in return. Issue no. 5 I date women who are tough as nails while I am the fool.

4. I am determined to succeed so movies about characters overcoming the obstacles they face in life interests me. But I am afraid that I have not shown enough guts to pursue my ambition. How far away from the line must a man travel in order to say that he has made the correct choices and mandatory sacrifices to achieve his goal.

5. I want to make travelling a part of my life. To garner experiences in other parts of the world is something I truly cherish. Knowing that you are not alone and is part of group of people known as humanity that goes through the same shit that you do makes you feel less hopeless about things.

6. I love PDA.

7. I hate mindless herds (i.e. dumb crowds)

8. I think too much.